2012 Reflecting

Someone's opinion I greatly value said the best way to start the new year right is to recap the one before. The good and the bad to know where you are coming from and how to proceed without dragging back through the mistakes! Cause let's face it alot of us are repeat offenders!

So here is my top 10 good and bad moments of 2012 in no particular order! 

The Bad:

1.Loss #1- I lost the one person who has always been by my side. Don't know how to get them back and frankly I am sick of trying.

2.Loss#2- My Brinkley..truly "mans best friend" I am so sorry I wasn't hear for you when you needed me most.

3.Loss#3-Old relationship- I just grew sick and tired of being the only person putting effort into friendships. If you can't pick up the phone and see what's going on in my life other than what you can read on my facebook page.. Then we arn't friends.. We are acquaintances.. and that's ok too!

4.We have had several situations where we thought we were being pushed to the brink this year.. Thank God through love-trust-loyalty- and maybe a little screaming we made it through!

5.Failure- sometimes no matter how you follow a system or plan ya just smack face first on the floor.. 

6.Loss#4-Words and Actions hurt..Even when you pick up the pieces and glue them back together the original work of art is just gone...But in some situations Mosaics are a beautiful thing!

7.Nothing I "planned" this year turned out as I hoped.. I should really try to become a roll with the punches girl it would really save some anxiety..

8.My kids grew another year older.. I really wish they would slow it down a little!

I could keep going but really everything else falls into one of the topics above..

The Good:

1.I earned a BMW- a level of accomplishment I pushed myself so hard for while the lil demon in my head is always saying I can't.

2.I made new friends- Yes that sounds a little silly but when your my age it's not real easy to move and get out and meet new people. I love my Okie's!! 

3.I pushed myself to reach health goals I never imagined myself striving towards.

4.I learned that Karma does eventually get those who it intends to, and it's not near as gratifying as I thought it would be. Maybe this means I'm one step closer to being a grown up!

5.I stupidly checked a box to help out with the PTA, now it's my full time job lol but I get to be involved in my kids education on a whole new level so every second of the Chaos is worth it!

6.I saw Joan Jett and the Gin Blossoms in concert this year.. Be jealous people!

7. I learned helping others feel good about themselves is an addiction!!

8.I overcame one of my biggest vices: Be a people pleaser! There is a big ol difference between being respectful of others which my momma taught me to always be, and being a dang door mat. If ya don't like me that's ok! It took long enough to like myself so I am no longer concerned with what you might think! 

9. My family is finally getting some little girls! All the dang boys and finally 2 possibly more little girls to all be here by the summer time. I am a little giddy if ya can't tell! 

10.This may be the #1- I was pretty sure God had slammed the door on a dream of mine. I was pretty sure the cracks in my heart from things/people/relationships that he took away from me was a punishment of some kind. That maybe this was my Karma, and that is just the way it is. Then I realized those cracks just meant he was giving my heart a little more room to grow. And just cause what I had in mind for dream wasn't possible didn't mean he just didn't have a great plan in motion! I can't wait to see where HIS journey leads us!

and 1 to remember on.. Apologies come at the oddest times in life, rarely when you think you need them, maybe when the other person needs them! Maybe you do just have to walk a mile in someone's shoes to know how they feel. Every situation has 3 sides..your..theirs...and the truth! Feelings tend to mess up that last part! 

Oh and the girls..not gonna lie I am pretty happy to have them...

Here's to a fabulous New Year! You can't rewrite the chapters of your life, but you do have 364 days to change the current one!