Maybe I'll start this backwards. I Apologize to anyone whom I ever made feel like crap for leaving and chasing your dreams. I for many years lived on the beaches of Bitter & Miserable. I believe it runs right next to the river of Denial. I was probably not one bit happy for you and the fact that you were doing something that I didn't have the nerve to do myself. Good for you! I get it now!
On to my wish( not the rascal flatts song either)
I wish I could tell you what it's like to stand on the edge of the cliff and jump. Know that no matter what happens there is no turning back. It's terrifying and liberating all at the same time. I wish I could tell you that when you are standing across the "river" all that stuff just seems so petty. That before I know my heart was full and life wasn't terrible, but it's a far cry from my heart being full of happiness and to have a general fire for life again. To want to do more and not to accept things as they are.
There are still terrible days. I've began to think of facebook as the devil cause I read certain stuff and it just tanks my mood. The difference is when you go to bed at night you know tomorrow is another day, my feelings will hurt a little less. I've already seen the darkest of days and I'm gonna be ok.
4 years ago there were 2 people whom I couldn't imagine being closer to. Now those 2 people are like strangers to me. I wish I knew how to make that different. problem is I don't ..
rock on hailey! jake daniels was here!
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